I know how comfortable darkness seems. I’ve been in that place quite a few times without knowing what I was doing. At the time, I thought that Sitting in my room and listening to music with my earplugs on was just a better option than stepping out and doing things I actually wanted to do. But now that I look back, I realize that I was just trying to…escape, escape from my problems and relate to the music.
I am no more than a teenager, and you may say that there isn’t much say I’ve got in this topic, but trust me, I’ve been in that escape loop for most of my life.
In the long holidays that we got, I rebuilt myself. I decided to start going after things I actually wanted. I started seeing other things as pretty and found happiness in small little things. That was the time I realized, after watching a lot of movies, that I was escaping and running away from problems that I needed to face. Instead of blossoming, I was rotting.
This year, I started with a whole new perspective. Things started becoming easier. I became a go-getter. I got a girl, cut it off with her and am currently struggling to move on…but I am now facing similar obstacles I was last year, and I am actually trying to challenge myself to face them. Step by step, slowly that it doesn’t even feel like a change, but in the past 2 months, I have improved so much. Its been a ride uphill. This year has been a ride uphill!
So that is my story. Many of us face such obstacles and don’t want to really face them. It seems like a better option to just enjoy your own company and that is totally fine, except you don’t really enjoy your own company! You’re constantly thinking what others are thinking, about the fun they’re having, You’re overthinking stuff.
We go through that phase many times, We must learn to come out of it. So what I did when I realized this pitiful, obsessive and compulsive and addictive phase was, I tried different things. I just did different things, anything that made me step out of my comfort zone.
- DO SOMETHING
The key to when you want to keep to yourself and gently slip into your own imaginary world is to just try different stuff. Just do stuff. Seriously, if you want to forget something that’s bothering you from your past, maybe something that you’re ashamed of, just do some things. Try out different stuff. Go to the park, play with dogs, do some physical activity, go to the gym, take classes for an instrument, learn something new. Please DO NOT listen to music that reminds you of the past. DO NOT watch movies that make you sad. Do something.
- READ ONLINE IMPROVEMENT BLOGS
So I’m still healing and Honestly I’ve found some online blogs very very helpful In my journey to becoming a better self. It all started with me trying to understand my shadow self, which eventually led me to watch channels like ‘School Of Life’, and understood the role of our upbringings in our tastes and likings and decisions.
…………………………………………………To be continued…………………………………………………………………………………………..