I don’t know where I’m going. Don’t wanna face reality cause my head’s more beautiful, lost in thoughts of you. Just wanna keep writing all that i feel and it’ll never end. I know I’m being crazy but this delusional feel is what I’m in love with now. Your love was crazy, the aftermath was beautiful. Now you’re distancing yourself and I’m just dragging behind you. Its not over yet, but i suppose it’s about to be.

And shit man. Some sunlight just came in from the window, I just lost that feeling to the sunshine of the setting sun. Everything seems so much more beautiful after i talk to you. I just love what we can be, in my head, but i hate what we are to the world. We’re the worst thing two people can be; Exes. That is exhausting and irritating. We have our little space in our chat room where we talk to infinities. Something’s there in that little space, something that we both found; a home. I never want you to read this, but I’m just tired of letting it out incompletely or sometimes not at all. That’s why you call me delusional. That’s why we’re better off as friends in a classroom than lovers in an empty room, and even better than enemies to the world.

I want you to know this blame game we’re playing, the ball’s in your court right now. I love what we are, I never want to lose this. Its my home and used to be your solace. I want to give up this blame game and return to that abandoned home of ours, And I want to live there with you. All these wants don’t suit you and you make this the reason for not being with me. And its true, I shouldn’t be forceful, but I’m just saying this, as a changed man every sunrise, I love talking to you. I wanna do that forever. That gives me so much joy. The complexities are added by the world, we don’t need to be committed or friends, we’ll just do our thing. Experience will teach us, We will fall apart or come together each time we fall apart. I want to join hands.

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So let me just put some facts now.

1.) We aren’t actually exes, we just cut off a romantic friendship

2.) I was just flowing with that feeling, trying to hold on to it just to feel real after very long

3.) My battery’s very low, so I’m done.